Where do I go when darkness overwhelms? Where do I go when evil abounds and hopelessness prevails? Where do I go when I am powerless to right what is wrong?
To the only one who will accept my collapse for a time into total dependency.
To the one who sheds light on what is dark … little by little, or all at once … it isn’t up to me but up to him.
To the one who brings me into a partnership, not puppetry as I once imagined of him.
To the one who changes my expectations and beliefs — about almost everything — who corrects wrong-teaching acquired from birth forward, the misinformation about people and God, earth and heaven, death and life, evil and good, darkness and light.
Where do I go when I am fearful?
To the one who believes in me, and proves it by stepping back and expecting me to implement his private tutorials, making life a practice session, a lab class to follow the didactic portion of his lessons.
Even when I whine, “Me? I want you to do it! I know you can do anything! Why can’t I be a puppet instead?” and beg, “No, no, you do it for me; injustice and trouble and opposition scare me!”
To the one who doesn’t give in to my arguments, and responds with, “No, I know you can do it. That is my way, asking you to put my instructions into practice. Wanting you to take the mind of Christ forward, step by step, day by day. Helping you to walk out life overturning evil with my laws and precepts, my love, my justice, my mercy.
To the one who stands firm despite my fears, and helps me understand his will despite my finite mind.
To the one who explains when I don’t understand, “I don’t coerce, I ask to be in partnership; it’s always your choice to do so or not. What is a person if they are only puppets and pawns? I value you, each and every one of you, I welcome you to join me in partnership … by choice, never by force.”
To the one who declares, “For I know the plans I have for you, they are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”
I go to the one who makes it possible, to together …
Overturn evil with good.
Take back life from the clutch of death.
Release captives of the prince of darkness.
Turn mourning into gladness.
Demand justice where there was none.
Bring mercy, hope and love to deprived people.
Shed light on what is dark.
All of this and more … little by little, or all at once … it’s not by our might nor by power, but by his Spirit. For he is light, and in him there is no darkness at all.